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I am embarrassed to send you a “final accounting” of my Challenge results…but here goes…..
When the Challenge began I thought it was a great idea and that it was a fine opportunity for me to get focused. Although I am a healthful eater and regular exerciser I have plenty of bad habits which make my weight and body an ongoing struggle.
I really liked the conversations via phone that I listened to or participated in – as one of the things that I find makes exercise in general easier and more enjoyable is the camaraderie of the participants. Something that by it’s very nature, myogenics prohibits.
But right away things were happening in my personal life that prohibited me from being fully engaged. My father-in-law fell, broke his hip and then subsequently died. My husband developed MRSA and then I did, too – in my case necessitating a hole to be cut out of my leg to remove dead tissue. Now under normal circumstances these would all have been fine excuses to NOT exercise or eat well. And I did take advantage to some degree…. but what I found was that I was much more conscious (read: guilty) since I knew I was at some level participating in the Challenge. This time, in the midst of trauma, I was aware of how I was providing myself with solace, or trying to move past discomfort and to a more positive place, and even finding myself grateful that exercise has a real place in my life and in my recovery from some of these problems. This was revolutionary.
I think the Challenge has finally forced me to take more accountability, respond more mindfully and move more quickly out of sloth-dom and into activity than I have ever been able to do before. I know that I made no progress on my “weight chart”, but I do feel that I have forged a different relationship with myself in terms of how to heal both body and soul.
I am ready to tackle some new goal or some new challenge and feel much better prepared to withstand the vicissitudes of life while doing so. Now…let me stumble across a stash of chocolate chip cookies with nuts and I may have to take that back – but only for awhile.
Thanks Chad, Brad, Dan and even you Scottie whom I have not yet met.
Melissa
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